Manic Pixie Dream Girl

by Rachel Kline

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this is a collection of songs I wrote over the course of a year to cope with mental illness, people leaving, and the darker parts of life that people don't usually talk about. it's personal and it's uncomfortable, but most importantly, it's real.

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released July 10, 2015

produced by: Josiah Brekke
recorded, mixed, & mastered by: Josiah Brekke, McNally Smith Studio, Spring 2015
all songs written by: Rachel Kline
album art by: Kayla Sotebeer

an extra special thank you to Josiah for being patient and understanding with me and helping these songs come to life. I am so grateful for all of your hard work and time spent on this project. I can't express how much I appreciate it.

thank you to Jesse, Gaby, Seth, and Elijah for playing on this EP and spending hours in the studio to support me. it means the world.

and lastly, thanks to all my friends, family, acquaintances, etc. who have supported (and continue to support) me and my art. you know who you are and I wouldn't have been able to do any of this without all of you behind me.

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Track Name: Pills
prescribe me all the white pills 'cause it'll pass in time
my airways are restricted, there's just too much on my mind
my fate is in my fingertips and that's too much to bare
oh what i'd give to have you ask or even pretend to care

I remember everything everyone says
sometimes I can't get out of my head
It's like I can't forget
So I'm stuck here instead

prescribe me all the blue pills 'cause things are just too bad
and I'm craving something stronger than the outlook I don't have
I wake up every morning and I break down and cry
because things are getting harder and I cannot explain why

I remember everything you ever said
like sentences just ringing in my head
it's like I can't forget
so I'm alone instead

I'm calling you out
but every time I open my mouth nothing comes out
Track Name: The Funeral
I woke up with too many thoughts in my head
and reality was a bitter pill to swallow
I was relieved to find out that my brother wasn't dead
but the truth rang out, the truth rang out, I'm hollow

I've been through hell and back in my mind
but at the funeral I was the only one who cried
I needed you to tell me it was gonna be alright
but I woke up and you still weren't in my life

calm me down, calm me down
calm me down, calm me down

these horrors creep under my eyelids and chain me to my bed
and my thoughts are being molested
they're the demons that haunt me subconsciously taunting me with truths
and they come alive at night where they are vested

calm me down, calm me down
calm me down, calm me down

I'm reliving this nightmare in my head
it's something that I shouldn't have said
I'm reliving this nightmare in my head
I'm reliving this nightmare 'till I'm dead

I open my eyes and I don't know what's real or what is fake
or if I'm really awake
Track Name: Holy War
alive
and holding my fingertips for something real
it's compulsive
awake
and counting my losses with each gasping breath
is it worth it?

I feel
with every once of me it breaks my bones
and I'm hollow
my chest
holds all my anxieties and traps the air
and all i know

I'm sorry can't calm down
I'm sorry I'm breaking now
I'm sorry I'm waiting to come home

nobody told me twice
that i'd have to spend my nights
being angry at the world

but we're all alone
I guess we're not alone in that

like a clock
that buries the moments where I feel alright
and all my time
runs out
I'm constantly too aware and zoning out
I'm holding my head in my hands

if only I knew what I know now
I'd stay where I can't be found
or where the people think like me

I'm missing out and growing old
watching the pages unfold
every new catastrophe

I was made to bleed
will you stitch me at the seams

and is this some part of some master plan
I'm selling you out
made it seem like an accident
some holy war

you know I've heard it all before
you know I've heard it all before
you know I've heard it all before
Track Name: Manic Pixie Dream Girl
I am a manic pixie dream girl
and that's all I'll ever be
don't tell me that you want
me don't tell me that I'm pretty

'cause I won't believe
no I won't believe

when I get too happy my brain shuts down so scared and bitter
when I sink to the bottom and don't rise up it's just familiar
you're in my head
under my skin

you changed your mind
you changed your mind

I'm just a manic pixie dream girl
and that's all I'll ever know
don't say that you are here now
don't say that you won't go

'cause I won't believe
no I won't believe

when the cracks in the pavement look like scars, I've got a problem
and when everybody leaves it fucks me up, I start to feel numb
you're in my head
under my skin

you changed your mind
you changed your mid
like you've done a thousand times

you're in my head
under my skin
and i can't win
Track Name: When People Leave
when people leave
I carve them out of me
when people leave

when people leave
they make their mark on me
when people leave

because the only things that stay
are memories and razor blades
yeah they'll haunt me 'till my grave
oh they'll haunt me 'till my grave
and no matter what I do
my mind is begging me to do
what everyone is telling me
to quit

but I can't quit
no I can't quit
I'm a fool

when people leave
they suck the life from me
when people leave

when people leave
they take everything
oh they take everything
from me